Crucial information...

Though I had drinks, including two glasses of red wine, until 1:30AM, I felt okay this morning. Thanks to those ukon tablets I had for relief.

After finishing my job at the day shift, I stayed in my office with slow progress. It was in the evening I happened to hear some crucial information about my future. It was not what I've been expecting and even shocked to hear things are going in a way that I hadn't imagined.
From that point I did try to finish some of the work but I was in no mood to do so... the news really had an impact on me and I think I just couldn't settle down though I tried to stay calm...

I don't know where to start... but somehow I have to get back my composure!

I must not forget the two targets in front of me...

are these two countries! especially the bigger one!

Perilous but unavoidable...

Today I talked about my future... about a serious matter and also an inevitable event... The reaction was not encouraging but I have to be tenacious!
It was also a precious day as presume I will not have any more full days off for quite a while.

I started the day with the cinemas, watching My Blueberry Nights, and then went on to pick up my car finishing its inspection.


the gasoline is waiting for you!

I had some delicious hamburg steak and grilled beef for dinner!

lovely!

But while driving home, I had a serious bellyache as it was too risky for me to eat so much when my mental state is not in balance and my digestion system is dreadful this past week. My throat still aches and I have a running nose with occasional sneezes.
I need to get back in gear next week and I hope things will turn to the better from tomorrow!

PS

Officer was close... a third place finish at the Coral Stakes (OP) at Hanshin.... oh I hope things will turn to the better for this horse too!

Going on and on...

Last night I had a lot of alcohol again, attending a welcome party with colleagues, inviting my former boss while I was a reporter at Kobe.
I slept on throughout the morning to get some rest before going to the night shift.
I have no time to rest tomorrow before going to the overnight shift, so today could be the only day I can rest my body.
I was drunk and my bosses were drunk too, but there were so many remarks that could have been some progonostications of my future.
How unpleasant it could be and how challenging it would be, I must go on...

P.S.

souvenirs from China...
the Japanese brand on the left was delicious, but the pseudo-Japanese brand on the right was... ah, forget it...

Back to work... for the future...

タイトル：仕事に戻って…将来のために…

I'm not going to say "I'm quitting" anymore from today.
Because in my mind, I've already decided to call it quits.

I'm just going to think about the best timing to move on to the next step. I'm afraid I don't think I can make it more than a year...

I don't have a starful number of choices being 35 this year, but I have enough to start planning.

some of the choices to start with!

While I'm still with my current job, I better try to keep earning money to go on for a couple of years!

今日から「仕事を辞める」ってもう言わない。
だって心の中では、もう辞めようって決断してるから。

次のステップに進む最良のタイミングがいつなのか良く考えよう。あと１年以上は無理なような気はする…。
今年３５歳になるから星降るほどの数の選択肢はないが、計画が出来るほどはある。
写真：とりあえずの選択肢！
この仕事にいる間は、あと数年間は大丈夫なくらい稼がないとね！