Starting once more...

タイトル：もう１回始めよう…

Last night we welcomed new members to our department and we've started a new year.

Somehow I felt a little tired...
No, taking care of the typhoon didn't rid my strength that much...
No, it wasn't because I woke up early to say farewell to my colleagues...
No, I didn't have too much drinks at the welcome party...

Somehow I felt tired...
Yes, because I've been thinking too much of my future these few weeks...
Yes, because I decided this year will be the last to cover disasters...
Yes, because I must decide what I'm going to do after a year from today...

Anguish of my heart...
With still hopes of a better future...
If my life is over, I won't be so worried...

But I'll stop worrying from tonight.
I swear I'll start this new year constructively!
Starting a new year which will be the first steps...
Of another dimension of my precious, one and only life!!

And I'll remember...
I've done it before. I can do it again!!

On a night like this, this song calms me...

Carpenters "Yesterday Once More: Greatest Hits 1969-1983" (re-released in 1998)
http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/B00000HY5J/ref=pd_sxp_elt_l1/103-1420271-1431069

Yesterday Once More (R.Carpenter,J.Bettis 1973)
When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry

Just like before
It's yesterday once more


昨晩、うちの部の新しい仲間たちを迎えた。そして新しい年が始まった。

なぜかちょっとだけ疲れを感じていた…。
いや、台風の相手をするのにそんなに体力を奪われなかったはず…。
いや、仲間たちを見送るために早く起きたからじゃないはず…。
いや、歓迎会でそんなに飲んでないはず…。

なぜか疲れを感じていたんだ…。
そう、ここ数週間で将来のことを考えすぎていたから…。
そう、災害取材の担当は今年で最後にしようと決めたから…。
そう、きょうからちょうど一年後以降、何をするのか決めないといけないから…。

心の悩み…。
より明るい将来がまだあるだけに…。
もう人生が終わってるのなら、こんなに悩むことはない…。

でも今夜から悩むのはやめた。
この新しい年は前向きに始めることを誓おう！
新しい年を始めること、それは最初のステップになる…
大切で一つしかない人生の別の次元に入る…。

そして忘れない…。
前にやったことあるんだから、もう１回できるさ！！

こんな夜は、この唄が心を落ち着かせてくれる…。

写真：カーペンターズ「イエスタデイ・ワンス・モア：グレイテストヒッツ１９６９－１９８３」（１９９８年に再リリース）

イエスタデイ・ワンス・モア（Ｒカーペンター・Ｊベティス　１９７３年）
（詞の訳は略）

(today's word)
anguish　苦悩、激痛
　+of the heartで心の悩み
　anguishの結果、happinessに変わる。
　人生、それの繰り返しだ。
　ここ１か月ほどの苦悩の時期は
　これからの楽しい時期につながる。
　夏本番はこれからだしね！