I'm also asked to be a great manager to run a bureau, but each time I find out the cruelty of being a manager, I find it a great burden that I have to be one. One small issue that makes me feel malicious or powerless working under an organization, I feel I'd rather take the burden being a manager for a company that I own myself and take all the responsibilities myself. Going bankrupt or not would directly be my fault, but I'd take the responsibility. Here I'm just a middleman but told to be a good manager! I didn't become a reporter to become a good manager!
Working in Tokyo, in the social news division, I was starting to feel a pull of some sort that I was becoming a reporter that I've wanted, though I had many complications at that time too to find out a solution for doing all the work I really didn't want to. I was finally sensing that I was doing the job I've always wanted to... pointing out the problems that our society had and reporting to make things better. I know I wasn't going to be some award winning journalist, but I was finally starting to be what a humble reporter should be.
I don't care at all showing my face on TV or being a celebrity... it's the last thing I want before death... it could help to show I'm doing fine to my worried parents in Japan, but it surely would be much better for them if I can show up directly! So please, I don't give a damn about exposure... let me do the job that I was finally starting to get a hold of... please...
PS
I had a major headache again today... I decided to stop working and go to bed early... I hope no one will call me saying "Are you going to write about what's written on Reuters? AFP and AP also..." oh... shut up please!
PPS
The SMS service seemed to have recovered... but there were still some malfunctions...
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