A vicious cycle...

The dark spiral never seems to stop. Once again I didn't take the right move, and I was awoken with a call on 5:46AM. Sadly it was too early to do anything and I had to wait until 7AM to start negotiating. If I had done this yesterday, I didn't have to suffer so early in the morning, and I had to tell myself how careful I have to be at each moment when I make decisions.

Like yesterday, it was becoming warmer and though I sense spring has finally come, the warmness has still not returned to my heart.

I had to work on my story at nighttime, and finally had a late dinner with my wife. Recently, I have no time to enjoy the food with her because of the work, and maybe it's because I had too much fun in Dubai with her... It's going to get busier each day and from now I'm worried we would be living together but spending time separately like separated couples in the same building...

PS
The battle I had with my staff has finally reached its settlement. I had to bargain so much and how bad could that be when asking for money is a deed that is so abominable to me. But I am not too naive and be whitewashing to say I can't negotiate and convince my staff telling them how nice I try to be to have them work with me. Should I be a tough negotiator and tell them go away if you want that much money!? I can't... I just can't. I'm not that kind of person... It would be even easier if I had to walk through the thorny path being betrayed than disgrace others. I also realize, if I really want to be on the winning side, I should be able to speak Farsi. If I can, I don't have to be scared not being able to communicate and get information which is the lifeline with this job. The reality is I can't, and from now on I should always think I must walk through the path alone and find the best help I can get using all my resources including money and friendship!

Today's pic...
Iranian snack of the day

Hiss!? Iranian Kit-Kat!?