Agape...

I only could freeze with my mouth open wide... agape with surprise and after shutting my mouth I returned to reality and only could decide the inevitable.
I was planning to go on a vacation with my wife using the three days off from April 1st, but the almighty secretary of a great nation just announced that they will be having a conference about supporting a war-stricken nation inviting their archrival which happens to be the proud country where I reside in...

ON MARCH 31ST!

Why on that day? Why? By this time, it was frustration that took control over my mind, but there's no one to blame... always there's no one...
It's too late to know my job is full of these incidents where I have to give up my pleasure for things happening haphazardly and unexpectedly. That's my job, I know.

So am I too sinful to blame God is the one controlling how these events are compiled as a part of a long story? I'd like to believe in agape from the Almighty, but how can I when I can't feel it?
In the evening, I told my plans that we had to cancel our trip to my wife through chatting, but it's a relief she understands the situation... perhaps more than me... Is the real agape that I'm feeling in the real world?

Me too...


I wanna sit in the garden and rest... sulkily!