Okay or not...

I had no idea if I was on the right direction or not. It's now evident that no one would like to help me, and I knew that would be the consequence of becoming a correspondent abroad. Oh, at least my staff is helping me and all my Japanese colleagues say "they will give every hand they can lend", but unfortunately they're not right in front of me, when I literally would like to have a lending hand. No time to cry and grumbling is a waste of time, so I'll just keep it here in my diary. Feeling isolated day by day, I have to get on the path of becoming an independent worker fighting for a job where results only count.
Evidently I'm asking myself, like I did 2 years ago when I jumped into a completely different environment, trying to confirm if I'm going on the right path and wanting to know if this was the right path I had taken, which I had not much choice if I were going to stay in my organization.
And you know... not being able to watch NFL games and not even a soccer match that the Japanese play in the Middle East, is really painful... It's the first time for so many years that I'll miss watching sports so much! How am I going to fight off this stress!? There's no answer I guess, but to bear with the situation...


countdown till it's time to pray after sunset... how many seconds till I can eat?
it's 19:40:57... oh 3 more seconds!!

and I munched on the delicious chicken kebab meal!

I still had to work... it's going to be a long night again... hmm...