Great stress...

Today, I felt how deep the stress has accumulated inside me affecting dearly my mental state. I realized today I couldn't laugh from the bottom of my heart and I even felt irritated by some of the things my staff were innocently saying. It becomes more stressful when I realize I really don't want to be such a character but there's no way to help it but let the dark side control me...
I know I won't be able to fight off the stress so easily in this working environment where there's no escape routes from perfection and it's always the personal responsibility that ultimately prevails. Sadly, I'm just not strong enough to say work is just work and it shouldn't make it control my whole life. I really don't want to be neglectful, but what can I do? Who will understand my pains?

Today, we had a press conference by the President. It was the first time in four months to attend a lengthy one (a total of two hours this time), but it was mostly about his words of condemnation to the Zionists. We didn't know the UN building in Gaza was attacked by the Israelis at the time of the press conference and if we had known I'm sure the conference had heated up more!

For lunch...


we had some homemade (actually officemade) food!


the soup was tasty... adding nun to it...


but the second dish was quite sour and bitter for me as they smashed some lemon without taking out the rind..

I couldn't say it was tasty... I should have... whenever you have someone's dish you should... oh, I really hate myself today!